Thursday, August 30, 2012

Can you mend a broken heart...

How do you mend a broken heart?  When your heart, and someone's heart have been broken how can it ever be fixed?  How do you live with the pain, the torment, and the guilt?  You look into the bright blue eyes, that have been made even brighter by the tears and continue saying words that you know hurt.  Images flash though your mind of every joyful and proud moment that this person has brought into your life.  You know without a doubt that with out him; your life would have been a failure.  This person brought you up from the deepest depths you have ever faced, some of the simplest joys were shown to be the greatest moments in your life thanks to him.  You feel responsible for their future, for their knowledge of right and wrong, for their happiness, and life in general. How can you mend your son's broken heart, when it is you his Momma who is breaking it?

For days after you question people, your husband, mother, father, pastor....did I handle that in the best possible way?  Was I too hard, not hard enough, or did I scar him for life?  Everyone looks at you with astonishment..Monkey did that, your Monkey?

Monkey is known to be the "good kid" of my four kiddos.  (don't worry the kids have never heard him called the "good kid") He rarely ever gets in trouble and as the oldest takes it upon himself to be helpful.  He is very loving and very kind towards everyone he encounters.  Smart as a whip, and a silly laughing kid most of the time.

Monkey broke my heart, he stole money from his dad and I!  I have never had an issue with him, stealing never really came up.  We had the usual, "don't take anything that is not yours, because it is stealing and hurts" talk but I never worried that it would ever be an issue.

Last year Bubby stole something from a kid in school.  Jerm and I talked to him, explained that it was stealing, and that stealing hurts. He was made to return the item, write letters of apology to the child, the child's parents, and his teacher plus lost privileges for a while.  It never happened again. Lesson learned.

$80.00 and no explanation of why he took it.  I found the money in his room while he was sleeping.  He uses my phone charger to charge his Kindle sometimes, I went in there to get my charger before I went to bed. Walking out of the room I notice that the clear cup that he keeps his allowance in ( I don't know why he puts it in there) had a $20 bill in it.....that's odd he just spent his saved up money.  I look more closely and realize that it's not one, but four $20 bills! I check my wallet, I am missing $80.00.  I am not angry. I am confused, hurt and my heart is breaking!

I wake him up and ask him where did you get this money?  Automatically his eyes start tearing up, and my heart breaks a little more.  He doesn't answer, I stay calm and ask him again "where did you get this" he finally answers that he took it from my wallet. I try but can't stop it, I try with everything in my power but tears are building an I can't stop the one that escapes my defenses.  I ask him do you know what you did, he knows, he admits that it was stealing.  I explain to my oldest son that he hurt me, that now I don't know what to do.  I explain that stealing rips away trust, it causes people to distrust you, that you are known as being dishonest.

I am hurt we have always had a very close relationship.  He was my life vest through the raging turbulent seas of divorce, single parenting and every day insecurities. I had to survive all of that and raise my baby, he kept me pushing forward trying to be the best parent I could be. I didn't tell him this, but I was thinking it.

We talked.  How the trust was now broken, that he would have to rebuild the trust between himself Jerm and I.  We would have to work through this.  How Jerm and I work hard for the money we use to pay bills and buy the things we need and want.  How every moment we spend working to earn money is time we would rather have spent with our family.  How sometimes one of us had to miss important family events and moments because we had to work. Every word that I say to him brings more tears from those bright blue eyes of his, and I can't help feeling that I am breaking my son's heart.  I am his Mother I am supposed to be defending his heart. We talked for a little while, and I then told him he needed to get some sleep we would talk about the consequences of his actions in the morning.

Jerm and I discussed the situation the next morning (he was already in bed when I discovered the stolen money)  We decided thatMonkey would of course lose privileges, but that the money he normally earned doing chores would not be awarded.  He would work off the debt of $80.00 first ( I know that I found the money) we wanted to teach him how it felt to work and earn money taking time from things he enjoyed doing, but not have the pleasure of spending the money earned.  We made a chart counting down the amount earned VS owed.  Monkey also had to write a letter of apology, and tell us how he planned on earning our trust back. 

It has been months since this incident, Monkey is still the great kid he was before this incident.  I hope that he learned his lesson well, we haven't had any problems since.  I still wonder if I was too harsh, or not harsh enough.  I was reassured many times from family, friends and pastor that they thought we handled the situation correctly.  Monkey has earned his allowance back.  I worry that I hurt our relationship, I worry that I will see signs sometime down the road (haven't seen them yet) that I caused some kind of emotional scar, was I too hard on my baby? Did I break his heart? If I did, can I mend it?

 One of my favorite (old) pictures of Monkey and those chubby cheeks!

Being inspired once again by Mama Kat, and her pretty much world famous Writers Workshop! Tell us about something you broke!

Mama’s Losin’ It

Test It Out Thursday part 1


Where do you get your inspiration?  Is it from Pinterest, friends, blogs, magazines, or do you just come up with things all your own while sleeping peacefully?  Maybe something was taught to you, or passed through the generations?  Well, no matter where you get your inspiration, how many times do you have to test something out before you really get the hang of it, or before it is no longer a craft fail?  I want to see all the tested out projects, recipes, tutorials, and anything else you ave gotten your hands on.  So here it is a place to showcase those tested out items!

How it works.

Link up your posts, make sure it's not the blog they come from, but the actual post! There should be a little space at the bottom left that will allow you to do this. (If I did my part correctly) Don't forget to give credit when it is due.


  1. Friend This DIY Mom's Diary in some way, follow the blog, Facebook, or Linkys!
  2. Please display the Test it Out Thursday button on your post somewhere.
  3. Visit some of the other posts that have been linked, and be kind we all love to hear (read) those comments!

Here is a little Test It Out Thursday from yours truly!
(I will be making a tutorial about it soon)
I keep finding all of the super cute pictures of little girls aprons all over the web.  I wanted one for my oldest daughter! (Babydoll) So I "tested" making one myself! It's isn't the best bit of sewmanship...but meh my sewing machine and I couldn't work out our problems.  Therapy didn't work, so I replaced it.  The new machine works a heck of a lot better now I just need to fine tune my skills :)

(Told you I need to work on my skills a bit )

Thank you!

I hope that this works out the way it is supposed to, hope you all have fun, and learn something from each other.  Come back next Thursday and see which links were some of my favorite, and see if you were featured!! 


Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Mushroom Meatloaf

Mushroom Meatloaf
  • Knorr Beef Stock: 1 tub
  • Lean Ground Beef: 1-1 and 1/2 LBS
  • Bread Crumbs: 1/2 cup
  • Chopped Mushrooms: 1 cup
  • Diced Onions: 1 TBS
  • Eggs: 2 large 
  • H20 (water): 1/4 cup


  1. Preheat oven to 350 Degrees
  2. Mix well all ingredients together
  3. Place in loaf pan
  4. Bake for 60-90 minutes, depending on your own oven 
  5. Cool for 10 minutes after baking

Enjoy! BTW my family got to it before I could take a picture hence the picture of only half a meatloaf, told you it was a family favorite.
Most of us don't top it with anything, but sometimes Bubby likes ketchup on his, he just likes ketchup!

Light up the Batcave!! Lamp shade Redo.

 My entry way is really dark, like Batcave dark! I can't stand not having light and with no windows or light fixtures the solution looked pretty dim (sorry Jerm always says I think I am funnier than I really am). I have been looking around for two matching, decent looking tall lamps to place in there but I couldn't find anything forever. When the price was right the look was way off, or the ones that looked really great had a really nice big price.  I was annoyed and believed that we would forever feel that we were coming home from a long day of solving crime (with none of the benefits like lots o money or cool gadgets) due to the entry way.  The other day I finally found some lamps that had a decent look to them, I loved the simplicity, the lamp shades were a great shape, and $12.00 for the pair were at a perfect price.  The downfall....lamp shades were white!  I am not a fan of white, it's not a comfortable color for me or our house (we like fall pallets)  So I decided I would DIY those lamps into our perfect ones!

There are two of these, but I messed up the second one a little and need to go back and fix it.  Oh yeah, and that wood paneling is on the list of things I want OUT of this house!


  • Lamp shades of your choice
  • Base Paint color of choice (mine is Craft Smart's "Terra Cotta") bought it @ Michaels
  • Stencil (optional) Mine is a Martha Stuart one I bought at Home Depot 
  • Alternate color (if using stencil) same paint but in "Wine" this time
  • Foam brush

Total Cost: The $12.00 I spent on the lamps, I had everything else from previous projects!
But...Paint per bottle a little over $1.00, stencil $3.99, Foam brushes $0.50 if you don't have them on hand! So the total cost of this project with out buying a lamp shade would cost about $7-$8 depending on the stencil!

Step 1:

I simply removed the lamp shade from the lamp post and set it on my work space, easy peasy right!

Step 2:

I then painted the lamp shade using the foam brush, my lamp shade had a little bit of a texture to it, so I painted against the grain.  I really liked how that brought more of the texture to it.  I didn't cover it evenly all the way around, you can see where it is lighter in spots.  You don't have to do this, I just liked the way it looked.


This is optional!  Using a tape measure measure the lamp shade's width and length.  Find the center of the lamp shade and mark it.  This allows you a center to place your stencil. (you don't want it to be off center, or maybe you do! Your call!)

Step 4:

Tape the stencil down securely to where you want it.  I used the blue painters tape, because it comes off well, but hold things in place.

Step 5:

Add the accent color by dabbing it on the stencil, be CAREFUL not too much as you see down here!  Way too much, this is a picture of the one I now have to fix because I used to much paint and the lines blurred!

Finished Product!

And there it is my new lamp shade for the lamps to light up my Batcave like entry way!
I am thinking about painting the lamp poles black, just because it is a common accent color in our house, and I don't think the steel look works with all my wood furniture!

Some other ideas:

A touch of elegance

Something fun (for the kiddos maybe?)


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Saturday, August 25, 2012

Ninja Star Coasters....?

Back in the days of Wedding scrambling planning, I learned how to make coasters out of bathroom tiles. I found a picture on Pinterest, figured out the basic way to do it. (Am I the only one where half the pins I find, link back to nothing?)  I was going to use the coasters as favors for the wedding using the stamps I used for the invitations as a way to decorate them.  Then in all that scrambling planning I lost track of time and it was one of the few DIY projects that had to be tossed. I gave the two boxes of bathroom tile to my dad minus the few I had practiced stamping on.  The other day I decided to make our family some coasters out of the left over tiles.

My basic inspiration came from here, but I did change a few things due to my tiles being stamped and just for my own preference.


  1. Four Ceramic Tiles: Bought these at Home Depot $25.00 for box of 80, I had a gift card so none of this came out of pocket.  These particular tiles are 4.24 x 4.25 they also sell them individually for under $0.30.
  2. Mod podge
  3. Foam brush
  4. Cardstock: I am sure you can use regular construction paper, news paper anything you like, but I wanted cardstock because it was thicker, and less bubbles. I bought four sheets for $0.29 each, but I still have enough to make another set, or use for some other small project.
  5. Felt: I changed it to an all felt bottom instead of felt circles because I didn't like how the bottom of the tile looked.  The felt was $0.25 per sheet, and I used one sheet to make all four coasters.
  6. Lacquer: this cost me like $4.00 but I can use it on a lot of other projects, the can is still really full.
Total Cost: about $5.50 for four coasters!

Step 1:

You want to cut your paper down to size. I had to cut my paper to 4.25 x 4.25 because of the stamps on the tile.  If you would like a nice edging around the paper simply cut the paper down to 3.75 x 3.75. It gives you a pretty edge of what ever color your tile is. This is where those handy paper cutters really come into play.

Step 2:

Apply a thin coat of mod podge to the tile using your foam brush.

Then place the paper where you want it, the plus to card stock is that it is thicker so you can slide it around till you get it where you want it.  Let the paper sit until it is dry, I just continued with other tiles while letting the ones before dry.

Step 3:

Apply mod podge to the top of the paper, this is really important if you cut the paper smaller than the tile, it will prevent the edges of the paper from peeling up.  

I allowed the first coat to dry then gave each tile a second coat.  The thinner each coat the faster they will dry.

Step 4:

Spray each tile with a good coat of the Lacquer, make sure you are in a well ventilated area!

I gave each tile two coats of Lacquer, letting them dry in between.  The lacquer allows the paper to stay dry when glasses of liquid have condensation dripping down.

Step 5:

Coat the back of each tile with mod podge (only if you are attaching a full sheet of felt)

I don't like the way that the tiles look on the back, so I used a full sheet of felt to cover the back!

You can buy the little circles of felt at most craft stores, or in craft sections, some are even self adhesive.  You are using the felt to prevent the tiles from scratching your tables.  Just go with whatever you think would look better!

Finished Product!

We like to use Fall colors in our decorating.  I love fall, I am originally from Oklahoma and there isn't a season called fall there! :) I love the colors and Jerm says they are relaxing and not girly.  After thinking about these coasters I realized that with an almost two year old who uses our living room as a play room that these may become weapons for her.  I think that for now I am going to place them on the Dining Room table and use them as bases for pillar candles ( the electronic smell good kind) At least until I can trust her not to ninja star them at my head!

Not that this sweet baby would ever do something like that right....

P.S I linked this post up with Make It Yourself Monday so head on over there and check out some other cute ideas!

Monday, August 20, 2012

I got my first award!!

First off I want to thank Mama  @ for nominating me for this award, go and check out her blog!

I was super ecstatic to realize that another blogger from the Top Mommy Blogs awarded me with this award!  This is my first award so it's pretty dang cool...ok there I go showing my age again.  Honestly I have no idea what the kids say anymore!

 And now for the rules:

1. Include the award logo in a post, or on your blog page.

2. Answer 10 questions about yourself.

3. Nominate other fabulous bloggers.

4. Link your nominees to your post and comment on their blog letting them know about the award.

5. Share the love and link the person who nominated you.

Now, for the Q & A...

1. What would you most like to change about yourself?
 I expect way too much from my children sometimes.  I tease them that they came out of the gate strong so now I have high expectations, but I know that I need to let up sometimes.  It is a work in progress, but there has been progress!

2. What is your theme song?
Avril Lavigne "Complicated"  I sing this to myself when I'm too worried about what others are thinking, and I am not acting like myself.

3. One part of your life, a memory, action, etc., that you wish you could surgically remove from your brain.
I had an appointment once to meet and adoption agent to help me give a child up for adoption, it never went farther than that. To this day even making that appointment haunts me every time I look into my child's beautiful smiling face!  I am pro adoption, but I can't believe I almost gave up my baby because I didn't think I could raise another child by myself. I did!

4. What generation do you wish you had been a part of?
The 1920's loved the fashion, the music, everything!


5. What was your favorite childhood toy?
Gizmo my stuffed animal cat, I have had this toy longer than I can remember!  He has gone through many surgeries, but he is still with us, I have to fight my children off him all the time!

6. What is your favorite housecleaning chore? 
Organizing, I love to organize things even if they don't always stay that way in this household!

7. Do you twitter?
No I am afraid it would be another thing that suck me in...I think I have an account though LOL

8. Any goals?
I want to finish my BA in education, but the fear of going into serious debt then not working as a Teacher scares the tar out of me.  It doesn't have the best getting hired chances in my area at the moment, and I would hate to have a BA in education but do something totally different with it!

9. Do you drink margaritas all the time?
No tequila and I don't get along, it turns me into a mean person.  Then again, I really don't drink much, if we go out, I may have a sex on the beach though.  Ha ha I was the DD for my own Bachlorette party!

10. What is the ugliest car you've ever driven and were you embarrassed to be seen in it?
For awhile when I was in between cars and a single mom with two kids, my dad let me use the 1987 Mercury Grand Marquise that my great aunt had willed to him.  She only drove it to church and wal mart but really??? This car was almost as old as me, and I was driving it in 2006!  I called it the "ghetto sled" LOL Then the transmission decided to go out during a 12 hour road trip, lets just say I kicked this car for years!


Now to nominate a few people who I think deserve this award:

 Lisa @
Jennifer @
Eliza @

There were a list of other blogs that I think deserve the award, but I am not the only person who feels that way because they already got it! LOL

I mustache you, do you like......Coffee?

Coffee...who doesn't love coffee, especially when it is in your favorite mug?  I found the cutest coffee mugs on etsy the other day.  I wanted a set of them but they were sold.  I had also seen a tutorial on pinterest on how to paint coffee mugs.  I have seen the ones where people use sharpies, and know that they don't last so I decided to try the painted ones.

 The cute ones I found on Etsy!

I went out to a local thrift shop and found two white coffee mugs, they didn't match but I liked that about them!  They only cost me $.50 each so they were definitely worth $1.00 total.  A friend of mine was thrown a baby shower that had a mustache theme to it, each invitation had a cute little mustache that you cut out then brought with you to the party for a prize giveaway. (I think) Unfortunately, I was unable to attend the baby shower thanks to everyone plus one taking off work that same day. The last weekend before school starts is not an ideal time to finally do that family outing you planned for all summer bunch of procrastinators!! LOL  So I cut the mustache out then taped it to the mug using regular masking tape, I then traced the mustache onto the mug with a plain old pencil, and removed the paper mustache after.  The pinterest tutorial used porcelain painting pens for their mugs, but my local Micheals was out of the pens, and I have no patience so I bought a container of brush on paint.  The brush on paint was limited in color but I found a really really dark green and bought it.  Ok I will be honest, the company is a foreign one, I couldn't figure out what the colors were (the shelves were out of order getting ready to be restocked)  and I thought that it was black LOL  The paint cost a whole $1.50 on sale and well was worth it.  I used a fine tip brush to paint it on (and if you make many multiple layers of the dark green, allowing each to dry in get black yay!!)

The porcelain paint I used it is called Vitrea

I then allowed the mugs to dry for the instructed 24 hours, and then let them dry for another 48 because everything got crazy around this house for a couple days, thanks school paperwork that I have to fill out for all the kids even though they go to the SAME school.... and all that information is the same.  Then I placed my mugs upside down in the oven at 320 degrees (the bottle gives you the Celsius temperature, so I had to do some major math skills get on Google and have them calculate it for me) for 40 minutes, then plus an extra 15 because that is when Boogie decided she wanted to wake up from her nap, just as my oven timer was going off!  I then placed them in the dishwasher and washed them.  Jerm and I have both used ours, and washed them a couple times in the dishwasher and they still look like this!

Aren't they cute?  Especially for a grand total of $2.50!!

I do think that I should have trimmed the mustaches down a bit, but Jerm and I just started really drinking coffee everyday thanks to the new coffee pot we got as a wedding gift.  I know how did we survive before? (Monsters Energy drinks!!!) So I didn't have a lot of mugs and wanted to try this, they are not as perfect as I would like them to be (you still see a little green around the edges) but I am going to buy the pens and try some other designs.  I want to work out all the kinks, I think personalized DIY coffee mugs would make great Christmas gifts to Teachers and others, and I have four months to work on them!

I linked this up with a link party why don't you head over there and check out a few more cute and fun ideas!

Thursday, August 16, 2012

Writers Workshop...share your earliest childhood memory!!

 There is a blog that I have recently started reading (like it's crack) , I mean honestly I think I have been  reading this blog more than I have been working on my own for the past week.  The author of the blog (Robyn) has been blogging for a while so I have about a years worth of posts that I have been catching up on.  Anyway before I ramble on, and you have no clue what I am talking about.  The blog I have been reading here links up with another blogger who hosts a Writers Workshop.  This mommy blogger (Mama Kat) gives 5 topics that you can choose from each week and there you really I mean it go...get working on that blog post! LOL

    I decided that I am going to give this a shot because:

  1. I haven't made any crafts, or have any other ideas
  2. My house is a mess, and I don't want to even think about it at the moment.
  3. Finally, all the kids are sitting together watching a movie quietly...for now 
* This isn't my earliest memory, honestly this was the first thing that came to mind, so I am sticking with instinct*

 Now I am probably showing my age here, but how many of you remember the reading program in Elementary school?  You know the one where you read a certain amount of books, get a sticker to put on a pin, then turn the pin in for a free personal pan pizza from Pizza Hut?

Who doesn't love a personal pan pizza...for a child!?

  Well if you have not a clue what I am talking about...the program was called Book It!! I loved Book It, I was (still am) an avid reader. This program was perfect for me.  I got something free, for doing something that I already loved to do.  What could be better than that????

Tell me you didn't think that this was the coolest pin ever...if you say no, your lying!

 Later in years (4th grade year for me) my school decided to switch programs, this new program was called 600 minutes.  You had to keep a log about what books you were reading, and how many minutes you read each day. After you completed the program (600 minutes of reading, within about two months) you were given a free ticket to Six Flags!! Don't get me wrong I liked Pizza but you have rides, games, fireworks, and pizza at Six Flags!  Now for an avid reader (like me), who could and often did/does read an hour a day, this was cake. I mean honestly I was that nerdy kid that had The Babysitters Club books delivered to my house!  

Please tell me I wasn't the only one who read these books, and then tried to start my own Babysitters Club?! Right?

So within ten days this kid was done! I was so excited to turn that paper log in, I knew I was the first kid in the school to do it....yeah a little nerdy show off dancing was part of the process.  My teacher, after looking at the paper, told me that my mom must have signed off on a fake log, that there was no way that I was already done!!  Come on lady I am part of the school AR group (advanced reading) are you kidding?!?!  I was so upset, my teacher called me a "liar" in front of everyone (basically), I had told everyone I was done, and now they all thought I had lied!  The teacher refused to take my log, and told me to really read this time or I wouldn't be getting a free ticket.  My mom was PI$$ED!!  She complained but it did no good, so she made me a fake log, a month later we turned it in with a lot of BS 15 minutes here, 20 minutes there kind of entries.....yeah great job teacher, way to make children proud of their accomplishments there.

The teacher was a great teacher, I just think that she honestly didn't think that a 4th grade child would read an hour a day!  I think my teacher was really just trying to keep me honest. Come on fess up, you know that there are parents out there who do their kids homework, or even lie about it.  She probably thought she was teaching my mom a lesson in honesty too! 

My first roller coaster The Texas Giant!
Tallest wooden roller coaster in the...US at the time!
I laugh about it now, and it didn't scar me for life.  I still read like crazy, mostly in the bath when the kids are asleep.....heck my bathwater gets ice cold and I never even notice it sometimes.

Talk about reading in the bath!!
I need one of these *hint hint* Jerm

This takes reading in the bath to another level too!

* I found all the pictures on Pinterest, some went to actual sites while others, yeah to nothing!*

Go check out some of the other posts inspired by Mama Kat, just click the button below, I know its good for a few laughs!

Mama’s Losin’ It 


Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Wall Art for Baby Boogie

Like so many of my previous DIY posts start....I was cruising on Pinterest, and I found some adorable wall art made out of toilet paper rolls.  I like to save money, I like wall art, and this was very cute, and super super easy.

I had the perfect wall to hang it on, and I think it looks pretty good!
I cut each toilet paper roll into multiple 1/2 inch strips.  Played with the design that I wanted, then hot glued them together.  You can use regular Elmer's type glue, but that takes longer to dry.  After glue is dry spray paint it, and there you go Wall Art!


When you glue it together, make sure that on the bottom side, all the rolls are level.  If they aren't it won't hang very level!

I got about eight strips per roll.  I had friends save some for me too, and the rolls for different brands tend to all be 4 inches in length.